I finally finished 'My Bloody Valentines' ' first revision and the moment of excitement lasted but a moment as my head began to question every decision I have ever made throughout the story.
That nagging and annoying little voice taunts me, telling me how stupid my story is and making me want to highlight it all and press the Delete button and start over.
Ugh! It is so frustrating...
I downloaded a book onto Kindle a few days ago and as I waited for my children to get out of school today, I began to read it. I will not name the book nor the author (as I do not even know her) but the writting was poorly executed. I mean, it was pretty bad and repetitive! (which i hate) And so I am terrified that there will be someone like me thinking the same of my story/books and it freaks me out.
I guess it might get easier after you first publish something, but as for now, I get panic attacks when I send my work out for others to read (which I barely do.. Keren is the one that gets all of my stuff- poor Keren!)
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| This is exactly how I feel sometimes... |
So my question to you is, how do you quiet the voices down? And are you ever happy with your story or do you try to edit it constantly like I do?
XOXO
I'm just barely on the other side of publishing, but I have to say, it doesn't get easier. In some ways, it's harder. You're in the public eye now. These ppl don't know you. They don't always have the appreciation that you spent a huge amount of time and energy to somewhat bear your soul. They can be so sweet and supportive or enormously offensive. The thing is, YOU have to be happy with your story. You can't (and won't) please everyone. It just isn't possible. The important thing is to know you did your best and be happy with the tale you wrote. There's *always* more to learn. There will be varying opinions on everything from character development to word count. BUT as long as you're giving it your all, that's what matters. As I've said before, the moment writing isn't fun is the moment you won't want to do it anymore. Writing is fun, an adventure! Enjoy it!
ReplyDeleteThanks Hope! I do enjoy writing very much, I just wished I could be happy with what I write and not constantly tell myself it can be better!
ReplyDeleteHopefully Keren will like it (?) *crosses her fingers and wishes hard*
I used to question every writing decision I made a lot, but it helps having a critique group. The comments are always constructive, and tell me what works and what doesn't (and why). It makes me feel more confident about my writing, and that I'm heading in the right direction. I think this helps quiet the voices a very tiny bit.
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